My thoughts

There are many thoughts of mine keep spinning in my mind!

I wonder what kind of person am i?

how should i behave?

and what should i do?

I'm a weak girl

i'm not the kind that outsiders see!!

I just pretend to be strong to prove that i'm able to do it!

There are many many things that i'm hiding behind

just becuz i do not want people to worry about me???

i don't think so~

Being frank.. i do mind how people look at or think about me!

I like crowd..the more people the merrier

Friends are all around me no matter where am i

they care for me

they cheer me up

and enjoy all the happiness together...

but that may not be the real smiles and laughters of mine!

most of the people might think that i'm crazy with all the non stop laughings and crap like nobody

in fact, this is the way that i use to cover up my sadness

i laugh unwillingly

i smile with a crying heart

I like to keep things to myself

talk to myself..do it on my own..

people around me would hardly see me express my sadness

i hate to be alone

i feel sad when i'm alone

bcuz this is the time where all the unhappy things pop out

and make me emo

i would rather stay in college than going home

at least i got people to talk to in there

the most torturing one would be the time when i'm driving home

Traffic Jams somemore...but no one can understand my feelings!!

And this is why i like to sms when i'm driving

i like to talk and i wish someone can talk to me

i had a habit of talking through phone while driving

but i changed it

which leads to sadness

that going to kill me

I don't like weekends

suppose to be the best 2 days for me to sleep well

but i don't feel happy

you might have heard that i went here n there during weekends

but do you really understand how do i feel when i'm at home

i need to go out as much as possible

i like outings

i can go anywhere as long as i'm not in a house!!!

house is like a prison for me!!

Whenever i go online

i hope someone can chat with me non stop

talk to me so that i don't feel lonely

i don't like people treating me so cold

who knows when i cry

who knows when i'm sad

who knows when i'm about to give up???

It's NO ONE!!

I do not tell my friends all this in college

bcuz i look happy all the time

and it seems nothing is bothering me

Yea...you're right if u think so!!

becuz i'm always happy when i'm not in a house

I don't cry in front of all my friends unless it's something that really really hurts me...

so, most of them might think that i'm living happily!!

I love simplicity!!

a tiny thing can just simply satisfy me!

and i just wish to live happily

thats what i want in my life!!

Be happy all the time..and not getting hurts...it's my dream~~

This is just a part of my thoughts

and i feel like releasing it today

there are lots more to write

but i gotta stop writing now....

Bubye~~~~