爱情是脆弱的,
经得起风雨,
却经不起平凡
或许今天的我们会是好好的
明天却已各散东西了
(也许只不过是赌气吧......)
许多时候,我们都有相见的机会,
往往就在找借口推脱..
有许多话藏在心里
不知该不该说
却想着以后再说....
(宁愿放在心里,自己痛都不想伤害到你)
给了你爱我的机会,
一转身可能就是一世
也就是大家一直盼望着的将来
喜怒哀乐时常都会有....
我唯有,
幻想着美好的回忆,
或重逢时的拥抱
(傻笑着)
Monday, May 31, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
I'm glad
THANK GOD !!!
i get to know something when i'm back,
grandma talked to me last night abt the family stuffs,
i got more info abt that,
that's what i have expected..
That 2 babi(s)..
huh~~ i glad to know that both of u have fulfilled my wish
grandma hating u both right now!!
both of u DESRERVED it..
CONGRATULATIONS !!
don't be suprised if all of us ignored u both one day
since grandfa been saying their faults
i dont think we should still treating them so nice
sorry la....i cant take it anymore..
i have to take out my mask
treat u both like .............(i still don't know)
i mustn't good!!
Anyway...thanks for letting so many ppl hating u both
especially grandma and grandfa
i'm glad to know that!!
hahahahahhahahhahahahahahhahaha~~~
i get to know something when i'm back,
grandma talked to me last night abt the family stuffs,
i got more info abt that,
that's what i have expected..
That 2 babi(s)..
huh~~ i glad to know that both of u have fulfilled my wish
grandma hating u both right now!!
both of u DESRERVED it..
CONGRATULATIONS !!
don't be suprised if all of us ignored u both one day
since grandfa been saying their faults
i dont think we should still treating them so nice
sorry la....i cant take it anymore..
i have to take out my mask
treat u both like .............(i still don't know)
i mustn't good!!
Anyway...thanks for letting so many ppl hating u both
especially grandma and grandfa
i'm glad to know that!!
hahahahahhahahhahahahahahhahaha~~~
Why is it so ???
Well...there are too many "???" in my mind right now,
why is it so?
How can it be like that?
What makes that?
Who did that?
When can it stop?
There are too many things happened in my family this 2 days,
I was being told that..
my little cousin fell down from the cradle
who is a 6 mths old baby..how can she fell down from the cradle????
I DON't KNOW!!!
I've been seeing my aunt treating her like a big child..
beating her when she cried..
I feel bad!!
she is not good in taking care a baby
and she seems not responsible!!
She doesn't need to do anythg..
not even cooking..
only taking care her baby..
not taking up her responsibility
causing her baby fell down??
I GOT NO ANSWER(speechless)!!
she is the only one who know what had happened
baby fell down from the cradle or...........(don't want to think abt it)
My "RESPECTABLE" uncle argued with my dad..which was a serious one!!
i hate hearing that
as it will increase the anger of me towards him and her(his wife)
Both of them have been doing a lot of thgs which makes ppl ard to hate them..
they deserved that!!! i can't deny
I used to respect ppl but also good in not respecting( for the 2 babi )
i wont feel sorry calling them in this way..
they trying to destroy my family and
(NO ONE CAN DESTROY MY FAMILY UNLESS YOU WANT TO GET IT FROM ME )!!!!!!!!
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The following happened today and its all about my mom's side:
Chat through phone with my grandma for abt an hour
get to know abt something bad!!
HAIZ!~!~!~!~ HAIZ !~!~!~!~
Aunt's house got break in today
money being stolen which was about 2K
but glad to hear that no one was injured
why are there so many ppl out there doing all these but not working on their own??
Grandma not feeling well..
got no appetite to eat and face difficulties in walking
oh god!!!!pls stop making so many troubles...
i cant believe..so many thgs happened in 2 days time!!
Going back to Ipoh later..
It's grandfa's birthday tomorrow!!
another great dinner..everyone's back!
would be an enjoyable day i guess since everyone will be there..
Hoping that everything will be fine soon!!
i can't take it any longer
too many thgs to handle..
Hoping that the 3 days of holiday would be nice and nothing bad will happen
I SERIOUS!!
Gonna leave soon...update again!! see ya!
why is it so?
How can it be like that?
What makes that?
Who did that?
When can it stop?
There are too many things happened in my family this 2 days,
I was being told that..
my little cousin fell down from the cradle
who is a 6 mths old baby..how can she fell down from the cradle????
I DON't KNOW!!!
I've been seeing my aunt treating her like a big child..
beating her when she cried..
I feel bad!!
she is not good in taking care a baby
and she seems not responsible!!
She doesn't need to do anythg..
not even cooking..
only taking care her baby..
not taking up her responsibility
causing her baby fell down??
I GOT NO ANSWER(speechless)!!
she is the only one who know what had happened
baby fell down from the cradle or...........(don't want to think abt it)
My "RESPECTABLE" uncle argued with my dad..which was a serious one!!
i hate hearing that
as it will increase the anger of me towards him and her(his wife)
Both of them have been doing a lot of thgs which makes ppl ard to hate them..
they deserved that!!! i can't deny
I used to respect ppl but also good in not respecting( for the 2 babi )
i wont feel sorry calling them in this way..
they trying to destroy my family and
(NO ONE CAN DESTROY MY FAMILY UNLESS YOU WANT TO GET IT FROM ME )!!!!!!!!
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The following happened today and its all about my mom's side:
Chat through phone with my grandma for abt an hour
get to know abt something bad!!
HAIZ!~!~!~!~ HAIZ !~!~!~!~
Aunt's house got break in today
money being stolen which was about 2K
but glad to hear that no one was injured
why are there so many ppl out there doing all these but not working on their own??
Grandma not feeling well..
got no appetite to eat and face difficulties in walking
oh god!!!!pls stop making so many troubles...
i cant believe..so many thgs happened in 2 days time!!
Going back to Ipoh later..
It's grandfa's birthday tomorrow!!
another great dinner..everyone's back!
would be an enjoyable day i guess since everyone will be there..
Hoping that everything will be fine soon!!
i can't take it any longer
too many thgs to handle..
Hoping that the 3 days of holiday would be nice and nothing bad will happen
I SERIOUS!!
Gonna leave soon...update again!! see ya!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Whats the plan?? ^^
HURRAY!!!..assigments all done and submitted..what to do the next?? i'm in the computer lab now doing nothing..MCB class later =.=...sienz!!!
hahaha..going to have lunch with my friends later..getting back to ss15.. i want to have ice cream later..hehe..McDonalds i coming~~~ *3 more hours to go
Nothing is bothering me as i have finished all my assignements..its kind of relief..YipPiE!~~ i need to enjoy since exam is near again..one more week to enjoy and its time for my studies again...study fever!!!! Forget about the sadness and looking forward to happiness..that's my mission!!! Stay happily^^
hahaha..going to have lunch with my friends later..getting back to ss15.. i want to have ice cream later..hehe..McDonalds i coming~~~ *3 more hours to go
Nothing is bothering me as i have finished all my assignements..its kind of relief..YipPiE!~~ i need to enjoy since exam is near again..one more week to enjoy and its time for my studies again...study fever!!!! Forget about the sadness and looking forward to happiness..that's my mission!!! Stay happily^^
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Changes around me !!
Having weird feelings everyday
which makes me moody and unhappy
its all are just too complicated
and i just try to ignore them
I hope time can be reversed
i miss those moments very much
happiness made my day and
nothing to be sad about
Every single moments are meaningful to me
but i feel sad with this way
i do not know what i want
i just feel that there are some changes in between
I can't get back to those moments
which i been missing badly
I can't see anything further now
i can only do what i need to do
No more expectations
No more predictions
No more confidence
No more self-respect
I lost all this....
i lost my way...
sorry i can't do anything..
But it's all my feeling..
It's hard for me to forgive myself after doing something wrong
it makes me hating myself
FRIDAY would be the the day that everything get started
that makes me feel like everyday is raining
which makes me moody and unhappy
its all are just too complicated
and i just try to ignore them
I hope time can be reversed
i miss those moments very much
happiness made my day and
nothing to be sad about
Every single moments are meaningful to me
but i feel sad with this way
i do not know what i want
i just feel that there are some changes in between
I can't get back to those moments
which i been missing badly
I can't see anything further now
i can only do what i need to do
No more expectations
No more predictions
No more confidence
No more self-respect
I lost all this....
i lost my way...
sorry i can't do anything..
But it's all my feeling..
It's hard for me to forgive myself after doing something wrong
it makes me hating myself
FRIDAY would be the the day that everything get started
that makes me feel like everyday is raining
Friday, May 21, 2010
RELIEF
Finally this day come !! i've been looking forward to it for a week. I didn't get to have sleep throughout the week, average 3 hours sleep per day...felt tired in the evening..went home and sleep and woke up at 12 to continue my work...my day started off at 12am and ended at 12am....24 hours non stop on Wednesday..in fact, i can't believe that i can do it..but during the period of time..what was in my mind was i have to finish it on Thursday since it going to due on Fri which is today.. i submitted it last night and got to sleep a little bit...MCB & marketing assignment submitted...hohoho~~~ it was a relief...just feel relax after submitted...I didn't spend much time with my dear this few days as i was really busy..quite sad but i only realised it after all the submissions.
Went for sing k session in Neway with my dear, xi yi and her friends.I felt sleepy in there, too tired!!..we left at 6pm and just came back from dinner with my dear...ENJOYED!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!
It's time for me to charge myself...i need sleep right now !!
Good night people..have a nice day~~
Went for sing k session in Neway with my dear, xi yi and her friends.I felt sleepy in there, too tired!!..we left at 6pm and just came back from dinner with my dear...ENJOYED!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!
It's time for me to charge myself...i need sleep right now !!
Good night people..have a nice day~~
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
天使与魔鬼 = 奋斗
很累，真的很累。 魔鬼与天使在打心理战~~~~ 魔鬼催促我去睡觉；天使不时在提醒我还有很多事情还没完成。在这一刻，我突然间觉得生命完全失去了乐趣，与普通人的生活完全相反了！！ 最近的心情都不好，时不时都会大哭一场，太多事情在我脑海里不停地在旋转，甜酸苦辣样样齐。我不想留在家，纳闷的感觉令我回想起许多不愉快的事情，宁愿带着疲累的身躯回到学校去，做什么都好就是不要在家里。欣慰的是我还有许多朋友在我身边，一直陪着我，尤其是我亲爱的，不开心的事情都给抛开了。我学会了，不开心或开心都是笑着去过，不会摆在脸上了，没那样辛苦。我想这也是时候把所有事情看开，试着去接受一些没想过去接受的事。
Monday, May 17, 2010
Head in the ground !!!
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I'm so so so so so so so tired right now..SLEEPY +_+ !!!..assignments not done yet..and i'm here to study for tomorrow's accounting test..what a stressful week!!!! going to have my dinner(bak kut teh) at 4pm later with my friends and going back to sleep for 5 hours and start my work at about 1am...what kind of lifestyle is this??? I hate it !!!!!! ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm so so so so so so so tired right now..SLEEPY +_+ !!!..assignments not done yet..and i'm here to study for tomorrow's accounting test..what a stressful week!!!! going to have my dinner(bak kut teh) at 4pm later with my friends and going back to sleep for 5 hours and start my work at about 1am...what kind of lifestyle is this??? I hate it !!!!!! ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
@__@
Wasn't a good day for me...my tears had been dropping too many times..i didn't feel comfortable throughout the day..there are too many things get stuck in my mind and i'm trying to let go..i need some time to recover....assignments and tests all due this week..i might feel better after completing all my work...no worries ppl...i be fine soon!!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Memorable days i had !!
HEHEHEHE...i spent my whole day with my dear on Thursday- 13th of May...it was a very fun day..early in the morning..we went to have breakfast in a mamak stall..roti canai as my breakfast..kekex..
I had never thought of going to Science Negara to have a date.. and it was not planned..we just passed by and being spontaneous..the entrance fees was free and we spent about 2 hours in there..hahaha..before that..we went to Selangor Golf Club to have a walk..we just spent a little time as there was not much thing to do..
We left the place at about 10 something and headed to The Curve.. We went to IKEA to buy a stood for my grandma and had curry puffs..so nice~~~^^....We went shopping after that..i enjoyed that moment very much as it was our 1st time spending a long time in a shop to buy clothes..heheheheeee~~ it's worth !!
It's lunch time..IKEA's cafe to have my chicken meal and a salmon fish for my dear.. hahaha..nice timing !!..i met with my "ji mui" whom didnt meet for a long time...^^
Our next destination => Sunway Pyramid!!..i'm bored with this place...don't feel like going there but we went there to buy a present for my friend...The Body Shop..haha...u know me but i dont know you..but i've decided to know more in this aspect..i need to be more girlish!!..hehe
MY DEAR !!...u made my day again...thanks for spending your time with me and giving me all the memories...its unforgettable and keep spinning in my mind every day and night!!
It was Friday and it was so called Junee's Day...we went to attend her birthday party in K Club..somewhere in Melawati..class ended at 4pm..and we went to have some drinks in Cheras....went to the party at 6pm and left by 10 something...again..we had fun!!
Saturday came !!! I woke up very early in the morning..day started off with assignment...its like a nightmare..i couldnt sleep well all because of that..My dear came again..we went out at 11 sumthg bcuz the leo club meeting was at 2pm..we left at 4pm and went to wong kok..management books and laptop were with me throughout the day...i did my assignment no matter where am i...i stopped doing in the end due to some issues..i couldnt continue my work cuz my mind was full with some useless thgs..sorry my dear..i showed u an ugly face again which i did not want that...sorry la!!
This would be the most challenging part for the day and my life...my heart almost jumped out but i still managed to control myself..hehe^^ i being so steady....i met with my dear's family..hahaha^^...it was not planned..10 minutes to get ready..and thats it...its all over~~~ i'm relieved!!
I would say that most of the memorable moments that i had was given by my dear...i get what i want after we get to be together..
Happiness > sadness
Hoping that it could last as long as possible <3 <3 >3
I <3 YOU MY DEAR!!
I had never thought of going to Science Negara to have a date.. and it was not planned..we just passed by and being spontaneous..the entrance fees was free and we spent about 2 hours in there..hahaha..before that..we went to Selangor Golf Club to have a walk..we just spent a little time as there was not much thing to do..
We left the place at about 10 something and headed to The Curve.. We went to IKEA to buy a stood for my grandma and had curry puffs..so nice~~~^^....We went shopping after that..i enjoyed that moment very much as it was our 1st time spending a long time in a shop to buy clothes..heheheheeee~~ it's worth !!
It's lunch time..IKEA's cafe to have my chicken meal and a salmon fish for my dear.. hahaha..nice timing !!..i met with my "ji mui" whom didnt meet for a long time...^^
Our next destination => Sunway Pyramid!!..i'm bored with this place...don't feel like going there but we went there to buy a present for my friend...The Body Shop..haha...u know me but i dont know you..but i've decided to know more in this aspect..i need to be more girlish!!..hehe
MY DEAR !!...u made my day again...thanks for spending your time with me and giving me all the memories...its unforgettable and keep spinning in my mind every day and night!!
It was Friday and it was so called Junee's Day...we went to attend her birthday party in K Club..somewhere in Melawati..class ended at 4pm..and we went to have some drinks in Cheras....went to the party at 6pm and left by 10 something...again..we had fun!!
Saturday came !!! I woke up very early in the morning..day started off with assignment...its like a nightmare..i couldnt sleep well all because of that..My dear came again..we went out at 11 sumthg bcuz the leo club meeting was at 2pm..we left at 4pm and went to wong kok..management books and laptop were with me throughout the day...i did my assignment no matter where am i...i stopped doing in the end due to some issues..i couldnt continue my work cuz my mind was full with some useless thgs..sorry my dear..i showed u an ugly face again which i did not want that...sorry la!!
This would be the most challenging part for the day and my life...my heart almost jumped out but i still managed to control myself..hehe^^ i being so steady....i met with my dear's family..hahaha^^...it was not planned..10 minutes to get ready..and thats it...its all over~~~ i'm relieved!!
I would say that most of the memorable moments that i had was given by my dear...i get what i want after we get to be together..
Happiness > sadness
Hoping that it could last as long as possible <3 <3 >3
I <3 YOU MY DEAR!!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Whatever Day !!
As usual i reached college at ard 6.40am...but did not manage to park nearer :( ...
My mood was down in the morning due to some misunderstandings @@...
I went to have breakfast with my classmates at Empire Shopping Mall which i have never been there before..we talked crap and being lame all the time...it was a fun day where that was the 1st time for me hanging out with Kar Mern and Veeiean..They are crazier than me..i admit i am crazy..hehe =.=''
My stomach was full of gas than food...haha...we kept laughing....everyone was enjoying i bet...and thats called crazy girls & boys!!!..We had 2 hours of fun time..be back to college at about 12.30pm....started off with assignment until 5 something..^^
We were hardworking enough...FB acc wasn't logged in..same goes to msn !!! HAYWIRE ~~
Gonna start another assignment tomoro..hoping that i could finish it by tomoro...^^
Good night !! :)
My mood was down in the morning due to some misunderstandings @@...
I went to have breakfast with my classmates at Empire Shopping Mall which i have never been there before..we talked crap and being lame all the time...it was a fun day where that was the 1st time for me hanging out with Kar Mern and Veeiean..They are crazier than me..i admit i am crazy..hehe =.=''
My stomach was full of gas than food...haha...we kept laughing....everyone was enjoying i bet...and thats called crazy girls & boys!!!..We had 2 hours of fun time..be back to college at about 12.30pm....started off with assignment until 5 something..^^
We were hardworking enough...FB acc wasn't logged in..same goes to msn !!! HAYWIRE ~~
Gonna start another assignment tomoro..hoping that i could finish it by tomoro...^^
Good night !! :)
Monday, May 10, 2010
2 Months Anniversary
It is a fun day!!! i got a suprise early in the morning..i never knew you would buy me chocolate(not a little)..as u said..its too sweet and unhealthy..i was so shocked when i got it..it is my favourite- chocolate mint and it was being wrapped nicely..HEHE^^...Happy 2 Months Anniversary my dear !! There are happiness and sadness within this period but u have given me a lot of sweet memories which i never had before..I really appreciate it !! Thanks dear!
Just found out that someone is celebrating his 4 months Anniversary today..that's our friend-Kee Ang...haha..双十节= 十全十美...well, do hope it's a truth!!
There are too many events today...it's Eugene's Birthday..we celebrated with him during ADA tutorial class..we had fun !!! This could be the most enjoyable day for our class...Lychee Cheesecake was bought at Dessert Bar...errmm...it wasn't that nice..but we still enjoyed eating the whole cake!! haha^^
Too many happenings in a day..and i seriously enjoyed my day where we had too much fun...anyway just to say something out here..
TO MY BELOVED DEAR - I do hope you enjoy the day and this 2 months..I LOVE YOU
TO KEE ANG - Happy 4 months Anniversary...may your love last as long as
possible..cherish the moments !!
To OUR DEAR FRIEND(EUGENE)- All the best to you and may u succeed in everything...
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY !!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
FUN nightS we having!!
Fun starts when i went movie with my dearest on Friday....again, we went to 1U to watch the one we have been looking forward for a long time- IRON MAN 2....was dissapointed with that movie as it was not as nice as what i expected..nearly fell asleep in the cinema...we were late into the cinema due to heavy rain and seeing traffic jams everywhere.
Movie ended at around 6.20p.m. and we waited for the most challenging part of the day to come. Auntie and uncle joined us to have dinner..woohoo~~ which is the 1st time...someone was so nervous!! haha^^ We went to have hokkien Mee in Uptown...everything went well and everyone enjoyed!!
HOHOHO~~~ Guess what!!...we had dinner together again last night...it was not as challenging as the day before.It was like a very normal dinner where all of us enjoyed it and like very familiar to each other...being told that it was the 1st time auntie and uncle sat in a Latio!!..hahahaha
We went home to play cards after dinner..omg!! i just found out that someone is so "GOOD" in shuffling..^^ time flies and it was 11.30p.m...we stopped playing and my dear went home..^^
I really enjoyed the 2 days and happy with it. Happy to know that you can get along with my relatives in a so soon time and seeing them treating u so well...it's a good sign..u behaved in such a way which was out of my expectation...thanks for making my dayS !!
Movie ended at around 6.20p.m. and we waited for the most challenging part of the day to come. Auntie and uncle joined us to have dinner..woohoo~~ which is the 1st time...someone was so nervous!! haha^^ We went to have hokkien Mee in Uptown...everything went well and everyone enjoyed!!
HOHOHO~~~ Guess what!!...we had dinner together again last night...it was not as challenging as the day before.It was like a very normal dinner where all of us enjoyed it and like very familiar to each other...being told that it was the 1st time auntie and uncle sat in a Latio!!..hahahaha
We went home to play cards after dinner..omg!! i just found out that someone is so "GOOD" in shuffling..^^ time flies and it was 11.30p.m...we stopped playing and my dear went home..^^
I really enjoyed the 2 days and happy with it. Happy to know that you can get along with my relatives in a so soon time and seeing them treating u so well...it's a good sign..u behaved in such a way which was out of my expectation...thanks for making my dayS !!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Recovery!!
See things widely makes me feel better and i have totally recovered from that. I've said everything out and now its time for me to sleep...i feeling much much much much better....we know what to do and not to do...good night everybody!!
My life is in such a way !!!
Honestly, i'm so so so unhappy and moody today. What makes that? i dont know..but i do know u have pissed me off...i got no idea what to do right now...feeling like crying out loudly..but it doenst help..
I wonder what kind of person am i in your mind. I keep hearing something from you which is really hurt...it has been many many times...but i bear for it!!
Some stupid things keep spinning in my mind which causing explosion soon...i do not want to argue with u in fact but i dont thk i still can bear for it....is like i almost fed up!!
I should adapt the way you behave or its my problem and i should change?? i seriously do not know...i've been asking for few times...but i got no answer...
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I wonder what kind of person am i in your mind. I keep hearing something from you which is really hurt...it has been many many times...but i bear for it!!
Some stupid things keep spinning in my mind which causing explosion soon...i do not want to argue with u in fact but i dont thk i still can bear for it....is like i almost fed up!!
I should adapt the way you behave or its my problem and i should change?? i seriously do not know...i've been asking for few times...but i got no answer...
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